Hospital vs Home

After delivering a baby, most people actually enjoy staying at the hospital a few days because they feel safe. There are always nurses and doctors coming in and out checking on them and their little one. There’s someone to help with anything and everything. You literally don’t have to lift a finger. It’s nice having someone (besides google) available to answer your every question.

While I enjoyed staying in the hospital, I was also completely paranoid at night. I was constantly checking Camden to make sure he was still breathing. The first night I got one hour of sleep. I literally stared at him for hours. Night two I was so exhausted I managed to peel myself away from him for two hours to sleep…….I actually didn’t sleep by choice. I was sitting up watching him, I remember looking at the clock, then the next thing I know I was waking up two hours later in a weird hunched over position. 😴

The minute we got home and Cam wanted to nap, I put his Owlet on him and laid him down. I was able to nap too without any worry. The Owlet gives me peace of mind. It’s like a second set of eyes on him except with detailed monitoring of his heart rate and oxygen levels.❤️

I would literally be a wreck without our Owlet. Thank you to whoever created it! My sanity and need to sleep thank you!! 🙏🏻

I’ve got PUPPP…..

Guess who got PUPPP again! 😩 With Ryder it didn’t kick in till 2 weeks after I gave birth. With Camden it hit me the second day after birth. I’ve forgotten how miserable PUPPP is. Sooooo itchy and hot!

If you’re unfamiliar with PUPPP (Pruritic Urticated Papules and Plaques of Pregnancy), don’t worry you aren’t missing anything exciting. PUPPP only occurs in about 1% of pregnant or post pregnancy women. It is an extremely itchy, non contagious, red, bumpy rash that shows up on the belly and sometimes down the legs, butt and on arms.

PUPPP is most common in women in their 3rd trimester. But if you’re one of those rare special people like me, it’s possible to get it after delivery. They are still unsure what causes PUPPP. There are a few theories that it’s maybe genetic.

I’ve tried everything to get rid of mine or at least just relieve the itching. Oatmeal and baking soda compresses didn’t work (can’t take a bath just yet since I just gave birth). Hydrocortisone helped for a second but it felt like it moisturized more than relieving the itch. The only thing that gave me actual relief was pine tar soap. It doesn’t have the best smell so beware if you try it. It’s got a strong outdoorsy smell. But it helped with the itching and eventually got rid of the rash the first time after about a little over a week of use.

Im not thrilled I have to go through the process of dealing with PUPPP again. But at least I know what to expect this time around! 🙏🏻

Baby Update

Baby update: The boys and I are slowly adjusting to life together. It’s definitely been an uphill battle. Routines have changed and the vibe in the house is very different. Even the dog is thrown off. 😂 But it’s a good different. Literally each day has a new challenge to work around and learn from. 👍🏻

Trying to get Cam and Ryder up and taken care of each morning definitely isn’t without its battles. They are both in a demanding stage and need so much of my attention. Also, a clean house isn’t the easiest task now. So I do my best just to make sure things don’t pile up. Showering is done if I’m lucky. I have to beg someone to watch the boys just to be able to rinse off. God only knows when I’ll be able to find the time to wash my hair again. Dreadlocks may be in my future! 😂

By no means am I complaining. I love the new changes in our life. And despite Ryder’s annoyed faces he gives Cam, I think he will settle in soon and realize Cam isn’t a threat. If my over possessive dog can be ok with Cam I know Ryder will be too (eventually). 🐶

When people ask what I need, my only request is positivity. I just need everyone to be positive and happy around me. If others around me are happy and positive, it helps keep my energy levels and positivity up. I focus more on the good and less on the things upsetting me or stressing me out. And trust me, with 2 little ones under two, the feeling of stress and being overwhelmed comes quick!

Different pregnancies

I’ve been battling with contractions for the last three days. Yesterday I was able to make it to the gym for a bit but today I haven’t left the sofa. My body feels completely drained. Getting up to go to the bathroom or get water is the extent of my productiveness for the day. 🤷🏼‍♀️

It’s crazy how different each pregnancy is. With Ryder I had zero contractions. My water broke, I went to the hospital, got the epidural, took a few naps and it was time to push.

With Cam I’ve had contractions for a few days. Yesterday was the worst. I timed them down to 5 minutes and 15 seconds for 9 hours, then all of a sudden they stopped. Yet I was left with this debilitating feeling of exhaustion the next day. Apparently this is common. Your body may stop contracting to take time to rest, absorb nutrients and prepare itself for labor. Then they start up again.

I’m appreciating Ryder’s birth SO much more now. It literally was so easy. I’m having to pay close attention to this one and put in “work.” It’s a lot mentally. 😂

A clean house

If you come by my house in the middle of the day, you’d think I was running a daycare with multiple kids the way Ryder can tear up a room. There are toys everywhere! Being 9 months pregnant I’m over having to bend over and pick them up every few minutes. So I just kick them to the side to clear a safe path for he and I. 🧸

However, you can darn well bet when my husband sends me a text to say he’s on his way home, I run around like a crazy person cleaning everything up so it looks like we have a sane household. 😂 He doesn’t need to see the truth in the destruction that goes on during the day. I try to spare him that stress. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Labor Truth

Did you know only about 15% of women’s water breaks before labor?!?!

The idea of my water not breaking completely freaks me out! I had it easy with Ryder. I was at home watching tv, got a weird feeling, and my water broke. I cleaned up the house a little, my husband took a shower and we headed to the hospital. It was smooth sailing from there. (With the help of the epidural of course)

I’m praying my water breaks with Camden. Why? Because it’s like a non painful warning system from your body that it’s almost time! I prefer that to having contractions. The idea of painful cramping is just not my cup of tea. I’ve been in enough pain and discomfort as it is, I prefer not to add on any more!

I think the fact that I’m a planner makes labor more stressful for me. I don’t like the idea of not knowing when something will happen. I HATE surprises. I like to have things organized down to the minute. With labor it’s completely out of my hands. My body is going to do whatever it wants. I’m not a fan of that plan!

I’m down to 6 days remaining till D-day. I’m just hoping my body gives me some sort of non painful warning like it did last time.

Rest when you’re dead….

Tired….So tired….I’m woken up every morning at 3am, 4am and 5am to the dogs pacing. The clicking of their nails on the hard wood is the most annoying noise in the world. I swear they do it just to annoy me some days. 🐕

Then at 5:45am Ryder decides he wants to get up. I have a full day of chasing a toddler around till 9pm. I never in my life would have guessed how exhausting it is chasing around a small human and picking up the tornado like destruction they leave behind. It seriously is a lot of bending over and lifting. 👶🏻

I’m in bed at 10:30pm only to wake up at 3am by the dogs again. It’s a never ending cycle. Combine that with pregnancy aches and pains and I am one miserable human. I keep praying for one morning to just sleep in till at least 7am and not be woken by the dogs, pregnancy pains or Ryder. But then I realize that’s wishful thinking. So I keep telling myself when I’m dead I’ll finally get to rest. 😂