Stomach bug

A stomach bug had me and little man down for two days. I kid you not, horrible doesn’t even describe it. I’ve never had a stomach bug that bad! He was actually tougher about it than me. But I could tell the poor thing was so uncomfortable and aching.

I made sure to keep he and I hydrated. Even when we were unable to eat we just kept consuming fluids. You can actually make yourself worse and cause internal damage (worse case scenario) if you don’t hydrate well while sick.

I’m starting to feel a little more normal again but I’m not 100%. My body is exhausted. I literally feel like the life has been rippled out of me. It’s crazy what an illness can do to your body in just a short period of time! I would never wish that stomach bug on anyone. This week my focus will be just to build my strength and immunity back up.

Ryder however is making me look like a weakling. He’s bouncing around the house like crazy as if nothing happened. What I wouldn’t give for that kind of energy!

Take your vitamins, drink lots of water and pray this bug doesn’t hit you! 🐛 😷

Toilet paper, baby and a dog

Never in my life did I think I would come to hate the sight of toilet paper. Don’t freak out I’m not about to discuss anything gross.

What do you get when you have a baby, a dog and a roll of toilet paper?…….a HUGE mess that you are stuck cleaning for days.

So recently Ryder discovered the toilet paper holder in the guest bath. He loves to pull the toilet paper off the roll. I don’t know how he does it. I turn my back for just a few seconds and a full roll of toilet paper goes from the roll to the floor. I’ve learned that while this happens, he shreds a few pieces too and keeps them in his mouth or hands. He then distributed these little pieces all over the house without me looking!

This is not where it ends! My dog LOVES the cardboard part of the toilet paper roll. So she will take it and “burry” it in random places in the house. Guests have found toilet paper rolls between the cushions of our sofas when visiting.

Needless to say, this game of theirs goes on for days. I say that because I’m the one cleaning up the little pieces of toilet paper and hunting down the hidden cardboard roll. It was cute the first two times. Not so much anymore 🤦🏼‍♀️

My Job

In my opinion I have the best job in the world. Never did I think I would say that about being a stay at home mom. Now do note, I didn’t say anything about it being easy. I just said it’s the best.

I spend every day with my little man from the time he wakes up to the time he goes to bed. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I’d be a stay at home mom. I was always someone who was so career driven. I worked in marketing for 7 years designing digital marketing pieces for the automotive industry. I then went on to follow my true calling and become a teacher. I loved teaching. Being in the classroom can be so rewarding (and such a beat down at the same time). But when given the option to continue teaching and put my little one in daycare or stay home with him, I of course jumped at the thought of staying home with him. Nothing against people who’s kids are in daycare! My parents worked and had to do daycare so I totally understand. However, the idea of being with my little guy every minute of every day was exactly what I wanted. I never miss anything. Every little milestone I’ve been there to see (and gotten most on film for my husband).

When people ask if I miss working I make sure to correct them. I am working. Raising a child isn’t easy. There’s so much that goes into it. I swear you’re constantly following them around or chasing them to make sure they don’t injure themselves too bad. Unfortunately I don’t get paid to do this job. But it’s the most rewarding job I’ve ever done in my life. Do I miss working in marketing and teaching? Absolutely. There were fantastic things about each of those I loved. But nothing compares to the job I have now.

Separation anxiety

My son is now 10 1/2 months old and I still get separation anxiety when I’m not with him. It was really bad when he was younger and I had to go out of town for a day or two to judge a cheer event. However that’s expected. I just figured by now I would be ok with leaving him for a bit. Maybe it’s a Mom thing. Or even a “first child” thing. I don’t know. But even going to the gym for an hour, halfway into my workout I start missing him and have to text whoever’s watching him to see if he’s ok. Yes I can be a bit of a control freak when it comes to him. I keep him on a tight schedule. He eats at the same time and naps at the same time pretty much every day. He likes his schedules and so do it. But this doesn’t feel like a control thing. It really is a missing him kind of feel. I’ve had people tell me it gets easier as they get older but I don’t know. I don’t know how I’ll ever worry about him less or not wonder if he’s ok all the time. Any other moms feel like this?

Costco pee incident

Yesterday was not our best day. Talk about a new Mom fail……Somehow my child decided that our Costco run would be the best time to fill his diaper. While walking around Costco I had him in the front carrier (baby Bjorn). I felt a little wetness on my leg. I was in the cooler area with the fruit so I figured something dripped from above. A few minutes later while walking down the diaper isle I felt my entire right thigh become soaked. I felt under Ryder and he was drenched. So was the carrier. In a panic I almost just left my cart and walked out. But then I remembered I needed that stuff from Costco (obviously the diapers). So I was forced to wait in line with pee soaked pants and a pee soaked child attached to me.

In hind sight I probably should have checked his diaper after we left our lunch date. But in my defense, he never fills a clean diaper in a matter of an hour! Lesson learned. Never underestimate your child’s peeing abilities!

Sleep training

Sleep training has been the hardest thing ever! When Ryder was 4 months I had him on a perfect sleep schedule. Then at 6 months he started getting bag gas that woke him up every hour at night throwing off his sleep schedule so his naps were all off during the day. At 9 months we finally saw a reduction in the night gas and he started sleeping better. He was back to his daily scheduled naps.

Now at 10 months I am training him to learn to nap in his crib. He will still sleep in his bed in our room till he’s 1 year old. It was recommended by our doctor to reduce the risk of SIDS. But naps will be in the crib since they’re short. Yesterday was day 1 of crib nap attempt. It was brutal! He fought it for an hour. Our dog Sadie was in his room the entire time. She would stick her nose trough the crib rails and whimper at him. I let him cry and would check on him every 5-10 minutes. Near the end of the hour I could see he was really starting to fade. He would doze off, then remember he was supposed to be mad and start crying again. Finally he fell asleep and he slept hard! He was snoring so loud even the dog would look up at his crib on occasion!

I feel like I achieved something by getting him to nap in his crib but I also feel like the worst mom in the world for making him cry. I keep telling myself this is a learning process for he and I, and that it’ll get better (and easier) eventually. But it’s still so heartbreaking listening to your child cry. Good luck to all you moms out there attempting sleep training! It’s not easy but you and your little one can do it!

Motherhood changes you

Motherhood changes us in more ways than we may notice. I think it’s softened me a bit. I was a gymnast and was always told I was robotic with my emotions and feelings. Having Ryder I think I show my emotions a little more. I make sure to always tell him I love him and I’m proud of him because I never really had much of that growing up. People were always telling me I could do better or I needed to be better. It didn’t matter how many competitions I placed in, how many awards I got or how many A’s I made, I was always told I could do better. I told myself when I had Ryder I would always tell him I was proud of him no matter what. And that’s what I’ve done. Every time he does something new or attempts anything I tell him I’m proud of him. During the day I tell him multiple times that I love him. I want him to always know how loved he is. It’s one thing to show it, but kids really do need to hear it. I think parents forget sometimes how important words are to a child especially in the early stages. Never forget to say I love you 💙