Making time for the doctor

Something I’m trying to get better about is doctors visits. Especially ones to my dermatologist. Last week I went to the dermatologist for my yearly skin check. She told me I had 3 spot on my body she was worried about. One was on my shoulder, one on my back and the other on my arm. They did a biopsy on all 3 and sent it off to the lab to check.

I’ll be honest, I had a tinge if fear in the back of my mind. I know I’ve done a number on my skin over the last few years. Especially in my teens and early twenties. I was an idiot back then about skin care. You couldn’t pay me to wear sun screen and I went to the tanning bed religiously. I was so stupid. 🤦🏼‍♀️ It wasn’t till I heard about a girl I went to college with getting skin cancer (she was in her 20’s) that I had a major reality check! If someone that young could get it, I obviously wasn’t in the clear! No joke, the day I heard about her, I went to the store and bought spf 50 and a face lotion that included spf for every day wear. I also stopped going to tanning beds. I switched over to self tanner and airbrush tans instead!

Last week when the doctor said she was worried about some spots, a little voice in my head said “you have no one to blame but yourself.” (Lol I’m pretty hard on myself) Worst case scenario ran through my head. What if I had skin cancer? Will it be curable? Is this how I go? What will happen to my family if I die? Will they be ok without me? Literally this all ran through my head in a matter of seconds. However, I made my attempt at pushing the thoughts out and just focusing on my kids in that moment. They’re always a happy thought for me. I didn’t want to let results of a test that I had no control over and knew nothing about yet consume me.

Luckily for me my biopsy results came back negative for skin cancer! THANK YOU JESUS! While I know the treatment of cancers have advanced, it’s still a scary thought. I do wish I’d been smarter about skin care when I was younger. However, what’s done is done. No take backs unfortunately. Lol So I’ll do the best I can now to prevent any further damage. I’m also attempting to instill positive habits in my kids regarding skin care. I don’t want them to ever have a scare like I did. I want them to be perfectly happy and healthy! 💙