Fibroids

Ever heard of a fibroid? I knew very little about them before I found out I had one when pregnant with Ryder.

Fibroids are non cancerous growths found on, in or attached by a stalk to the uterus. However, just because they are non cancerous doesn’t mean they aren’t without risk.

While pregnant with Ryder my fibroid grew to the size of a softball. That’s really huge! Mine was pedunculated, which means it’s attached by a stalk. I could actually move mine around sometimes which was really creepy. One time while at yoga I was laying on my back. My fibroid was in the middle of my belly under my belly button. I was able to move it over to the left side just by pushing it. 🤢

Not only did the fibroid take up space in my belly that Ryder needed, it was pulling in a lot of blood. I had to check in with a specialized doctor once a month, aside from my regular prenatal visits. They would measure the fibroids growth each time. There was actually talk about surgically removing it while I was pregnant. It caused me a lot of pain and discomfort. However I was willing to suffer the pain to avoid surgery. Going under while pregnant was not something I was willing to do unless it was life threatening. There’s too many things that can go wrong or put my child in danger so it wasn’t worth it to me. Pain for a few months was a better option.

I got on a strict diet in hopes of reducing the fibroid size. I ate only non hormone, grass fed beef and antibiotic-free chicken. I also got organic milk, eggs, veggies and fruit. I avoided anything packaged or overly processed. I reduced my sugar intake and increased my water intake. I was even very careful what restaurants I ate at. I saw a reduction in the size of my fibroid by a couple centimeters. That doesn’t sound like much but when you’re limited on space, any little bit helps!

My fibroid shrank to the size of a golf ball a few months after I delivered Ryder. I was told it would likely never really go away, but that it shouldn’t cause me any major problems.

My fibroid has grown a little this second pregnancy but no where near the size it was with Ryder. I’m still cautious what I eat. And I still feed my family only organic, grass fed beef, antibiotic free chicken, some organic fruits and veggies (certain foods you don’t have to buy organic, ex: avocado, bananas, etc). Fibroid or no fibroid I give my family the healthiest food I can always! It’s best for all of us. 💙

Mom Sick

Mom sick….that’s what I’ve been for a few days. It’s miserable, especially while pregnant.🤢 As a mom you don’t get to lay down and rest or even take care of yourself when you have the flu, a virus, a cold, etc. You’re too busy taking care of your family and everything else. There is no calling in sick or having someone take care of you as a mom. You just push through and hope it’ll pass fast. 😷

I like to do the “mind over matter” that my dad taught me. I tell myself I’m not that sick and I can get through the day. It may not actually make the illness go away. But of anything the positivity and encouragement helps more than self pitty or complaining. 🤷🏼‍♀️

When I try to remember back to when I was younger, I can’t remember a time when my mom was sick. I always thought she had an amazing immune system that kept her from ever getting sick. Now I realize she got sick, she just was mom sick. She never showed it because she didn’t have time to be sick. She was too busy working and shuttling us kids around to our activities. There literally wasn’t time for her to be sick.🤒

To all you moms out there pushing yourselves through a “mom sick” day, I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you. I understand your struggle now. You make it look easy despite how miserable you might actually be. Comfort and health is definitely something that we sacrifice some days, but we do it for the love of our family.💙

First vacation away from the little guy

We are off to Cabo tomorrow! I’m excited but also a little uneasy. Not because I don’t like traveling or anything. It’s because I hate leaving Ryder. I love spending every minute of every day with him so it’s really hard when I have to actually go DAYS without seeing him.

I know it’s healthy to have time as “adults” and take a break for yourself. But it’s just so hard! I feel like something is missing when I’m not with him. Plus everyone is always saying “enjoy it while it lasts.” I know there’s going to come a time where he doesn’t want to be around me all the time and will want to be off with his friends or on his own. So I feel like I need to take advantage of it now and soak up every minute with him while I can.

Lucky for him when we leave, he has 4 full days of fun planned with his grandmother. I literally think she has every minute of the day planned out with little adventures for them like the aquarium, Playstreet, etc. I know he will have a blast and be well taken care of.

I’m trying to remind myself that this time away could be good for him too. He gets to spend time alone with Gramma, which I never got to do much as a kid since one of my grandmothers passed very early and the other lived far away.

Letting go is hard. Even if it is just for a few days. Thank god for FaceTime!

Injury flashbacks

The other day when I was dropping Ryder off at our gym daycare, a little boy about his age fell while playing outside and busted his nose. There was blood everywhere. The child was screaming of course out of fear and I’m sure pain. I knew it was going to freak ryder out a bit with people rushing around. He seemed ok so I left.

A few minutes later I heard the siren for the paramedics. I immediately went right back to the daycare. I knew when ryder saw those paramedics he would have a flashback to his accident a few weeks ago and freak out.

When I got to the daycare I found ryder hiding in a corner of the room. He wasn’t crying or anything he was just hiding and looking at everyone with a nervous look. When he saw me he walked over and just hugged me. I stayed until the paramedics left. I wanted him to know they were ok and there to help, but I also wanted him to know I was there to help make him feel safe.

After everything settled and I left, they said he did great. He went back to playing like he does every day. Did I have to go back in there when I heard the paramedics? No. But the accident he had a few weeks ago there is still fresh in his memory and I want him to be comfortable at daycare and not scared of it or of paramedics.

Call it coddling or babying, that’s your opinion. Everyone handles situations differently and this is how I chose to handle this one. To each their own. But having my 1 1/2 year old scared because he remembers his own first major injury is just not something I wanted him to be alone for. 💙

Finding out about food allergies

A question I get asked often…..How did you find out you were allergic to flour/wheat? 🌾

Soooo over a period of a few months I noticed some weird, irregular things happening with my body. After eating, I would get this unbearable itch in my right leg to the left of my shin. It would itch so bad I would sometimes scratch till it bled. Crazy I know! 😳

Other times I would get severe stomach pains that felt like my stomach was trying to rip itself out of my body. Sometimes that was followed by the runs. Or other times I would start to turn red and splotchy, get red bumps all over my body, start to feel really hot and itch a bit. As some people like to call it…..hot hives! 😩

I went to the doctor and they told me it was anxiety. It didn’t make sense. I don’t get anxiety after eating. I feel happy and content after I eat. So I brushed off that doctor and tried another. Who told he he had no idea what it was and maybe it would go away in its own. 🤦🏼‍♀️

It took me going to 4 doctors to finally have one tell me it’s possibly a food allergy. So he told me to fast for a full 24 hours to get everything out of my system. Then try one thing at a time and see the reaction. I started with fruits, then veggies, then meats, then cheeses and nothing was happening. One day I made a sandwich and BAM! Stomach pains and the runs. The only thing new I’d eaten was the bread on the sandwich! So I figured that was it! After a few more trial and errors I learned that I have a wheat/flour allergy. I tell people it’s a gluten allergy because it’s just easier to explain and I get less questions since gluten allergies are like a “thing” now. But for me it’s wheat and flour. Different types of wheat/flour affect me differently. Hence one time I’ll get hives, and another the runs. 🍴

My food allergy and my auto immune run hand in hand. They each affect each other. Turns out the itching in my leg is due to inflammation of the skin and tissue caused by eating wheat/flour. My body becomes inflamed, doesn’t understand what’s happening and goes on the attack. Therefore causing an itching reaction. It’s crazy but makes sense how one thing affects another.

I’m not missing out too much in life. People always give me the poor pitiful you look and ask what I can eat. Well I can eat pretty much what I want within reason…..fruits, veggies, meats, cheeses, etc. Instead of flour tortillas I do corn, when at a Mexican restaurant. I have always hated pasta so there was no loss there. They make gluten free bread/wraps and gluten free pizza crust so I can still enjoy a good sandwich or pizza when I want. I honestly don’t feel like I’m missing out on anything. Going wheat/flour free hasn’t changed my life other than ridden me of stomach pain, itching, etc. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Pregnancy Flu

Pregnancy flu….never heard of it? That’s because I made it up. Well, the name at least. 😂 Not to be confused with morning sickness. This is way worse and it hit me REAL hard yesterday.

It’s just like the normal flu, but not caused by a virus or bacteria and not contagious. It’s caused by hormones and a growing child sucking every bit of life out of you. Sounds harsh, busy seriously that’s how it feels.

I’ll wake up some mornings feeling like death. Nausea, headaches, body aches, you name it. Luckily the “pregnancy flu” doesn’t last as long as the normal flu. However it does come and go when it wants.

Good news is, there’s a cure! It’s called birth! 😂 Once your adorable little one is here your hormone levels start to settle and the pregnancy flu symptoms disappear for good……until the next pregnancy if you decide. It’s a miserable experience and completely exhausting but so worth it in the end. I keep trying to remind myself of that when it takes over…..💙

Removing hair ties from hair

I went to my hair stylist and she asked if I pull my hair ties out of my hair with my left hand. Yesssss I do. I was really confused how she knew. She said she could tell by the breakage on the right side of my head. I knew when I pulled my hair ties out of my hair it may do a little damage with pulling but I didn’t think it was anything really obvious. She showed me the difference in the left and right side and what pulling out hair ties does to your hair.

My hair is thinner and broken off more on the right side. That’s because when I pull out a hair tie, I always pull with my left hand pulling from my head out to the left. So it tears at my hair on the right side the most.

She told me to avoid doing too much damage, to unloop the hair tie rather than pulling it. Sounds like something obvious and simple. However when you’ve pulled the hair tie out of your hair for years, you non consciously do it out of habit. I now have to stop my self when taking my hair down and remember to unloop it to let my hair fall rather than pulling.

Spare your hair the breakage! Don’t pull hair ties out of your hair!